My first....

When Jenny gone...I could hardly feel the pain on my chest, actually I couldnt feel anything at that time other than the feeling of dying. My mind was blank and my body was souless. I still remember the last word she said to me. I was holding her left hand and it was very cold. She was asking me wheather she looks terrible, I told her she was the most beautiful girl that I've ever seen. I kissed her on her hand and begged her to be tough...She was too weak to talk so I moved my head closely to her lips so that I can clearly hear what she said. She said to me :" I love you zhu zhu, you have to be brave, promise me.." "I love you too bibi, I promise.." I replied her. She then kissed me on my cheek and tears were dropping from her eyes..after that she said sorry and thank you to her parents and her sister. I wanted to hug her but the doctors and nurses don't allow me to...so I held her hand until her last breath...

I was 18, and I'm 24 now..we were together for 3 months...

Thanks Sk, Ck, Kum, Sean and Jien Tink for accompanying me in that difficult period..you guys are really great..

too bad I was dumped by girls twice after that....when I was 20 and 21...none of the relationships could last more than 3 months. There were few girls that I've fallen in love after that but none of them worked out as well. The pain on my chest this time was the worst compared to before...maybe because in the past few years I didn't allow myself to fall in love easily, so this time I have given too much probably??